There’ve been alot of times I’ve been on here talking about how all photographers go through a funk. Although I’ve been there ten THOUSAND times, that’s not why I’m here and that’s not why I’ve been missing for a while. I guess you could say I’m in a life funk. I don’t know why, but it seems to be a pattern and it seems to happen every summer. Maybe it’s because I lack routine during the summer….maybe it’s because I have too much time to think. There are so many people out there who read my blog that have told me how much they enjoy when I post things that may inspire them spiritually. I have even had someone tell me that I inspire them. THAT’S CRAZY!!!! I’ve had people tell me their kids look up to me. And quite honestly, that scares me. Maybe it’s because I know where I am. I’m not where I should be. There are so many things in my life I feel I’ve lost control of. I’m not writing this to spark worry or for sympathy or for oooh’s and ahhhh’s. I’m simply exposing the real me and if we reflect maybe I’m exposing the real you also. It’s humbling and necessary. No one should ever look at someone else’s walk and think their life is without trials. It simply doesn’t exist. I wish it did, believe me I do!! But I do know this….I know that whenever you go to God with EVERY single problem, those storms…..they’re shorter. It may seem like a million miles to calm waters, but rest assured…..they are there. Lately, I’ve been sort of kept to myself. Those of you who really know me sense that and I’m sorry. But if we’re going to be honest, we’ve all been there. We’ve all holed up somewhere trying to figure everything out all by ourselves. Whether it be our careers, our kids, church, our marriage or finances…..we’ve ALL been there. I’m learning that it’s what we do WHILE we are there that determines our outcome. What do you do when you’re down? I know what I’m going to do. There are two things that help me. Diligence in my studies (aka…. reading the bible) and writing. So get used to it :) whether you like it or not, I’m gonna be writing……..ALOT!!!! It’s therapeutic to me and I know I have a LOT of friends exactly positioned where I am now. Maybe it will help you, maybe it won’t. But I’m gonna share my good days along with my bad. I’m going to be praying for all of you. I felt led to blog this journey of mine, so that’s what I’m going to do. Please know I’m just human. I don’t claim to be any sort of teacher or counselor. You will very quickly learn that here. So stay tuned if you want. Yes, I will periodically be posting my sessions as I go along, but it is summer, so it’s slow. If you want me to pray for you specifically feel free to email me dawnatlamons@yahoo.com We are called to be intercessors, so at the very least I’m here to pray for you!!!
This post is going to be never ending because I just have that much to say, so snuggle up with your coffee, put your reading glasses on and settle in…..
I guess the best way to start this is with some scripture that I came upon that I fell in love with and just fits right now. I’m not really the kinda girl who likes to read in Psalms or Proverbs although they’re probably some of the best places to start. I like to get caught up in the history (old testament) and the prophetic (Revelations) So when I found these two passages it kinda surprised me in a good way 
Psalm 123: 1-4
Unto you lift I up my eyes, O thou who dwells in the heavens. Behold, s the eyes of the servants look unto the hand of their masters, and as the eyes of a maiden unto the hand of her mistress; so our eyes wait upon the Lord our God until that He have mercy upon us. Have mercy upon us, O Lord, have mercy upon us; for we are exceedingly filled with contempt. Our soul is exceedingly filled with the scorning of those who are at ease, and with the contempt of the Proud
WOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWW LOVE that prayer of mercy!!!
Another:
Psalm 124: 2-8
If it had not been the Lord who was on our side, when men rose up against us. Then they had swallowed us up quick, when their wrath was kindled against us. Then the waters had overwhelmed us, the stream had gone over our soul; Then the proud waters had gone over our soul. Blessed be the Lord, who has not given us as a prey to their teeth. Our soul is escaped as a bird out of the snare of the fowlers; the snare is broken, and we are escaped. Our help is in the name of the Lord, who made Heaven and Earth.
How awesome that the Lord is gonna protect us!!
Okay so those are two passages that I love love love. There’s also a song that I love and I’m gonna share the lyrics. I HIGHLY recommend going to youtube and listening to this song.
Britt Nicole- Feel the Light
Today, today, you wanna run away now,
You break, try to keep it together,
love, Love is all you need,
You’re a queen but you’re never known it
Life has come and left you blinded,
Stole you smile and left you crying,
It’s not your fault, shame is all you’ve got now,
Your heart’s tangled up in silence,
It’s time to let go,
Feel the light,
I know it’s easier to hide,
But you gotta let go,
Feel the light,
Let go and feel the light,
Brave, brave, the water’s all around you,
I’ stay I’ll keep you from sinking down,
Love is on your side,
It’s stronger than you’ll ever know,
So many years of quiet,
Building up like a fire inside,
You’re feeling like you gotta let it out now,
Just let it out,
Your heart’s tangled up in silence,
It’s time to let go,
Feel the light,
I know it’s easier to hide,
But you gotta let go,
Feel tLet go and feel the light,
How did you get here,
You’re locked inside of all this fear,
Inside you’re crying out,
Your mind’s a war,
Get out, get out and live for more,
There’s so much more,
Live for more,
Your heart’s tangled up in silence,
It’s time to let go,
Feel the light,
I know it’s easier to hide,
But you gotta let go,
Feel the light,
Let go and feel the light,
Brave, brave the water’s all around you,
I’ll stay, I’ll keep you from sinking down
That’s one of the songs I’ve been listening to, there’s another that I’ll share… perhaps tomorrow. But for now there’s a dream I want to share with you. For starters, I haven’t dreamed in a LONG time, that just goes to show you how closed off I’ve been bcs I’m very clearly a dreamer!!
It was a couple of weeks ago I had this dream. It impacted me. I woke up sad. It was about my Paw Paw who passed the week that Sam was born. I had a dream we were at his house in Toledo Bend. I was sitting on the back porch they have. It was funny bcs we were watching pieces of our past. My childhood. I was watching myself fish and swim, much like I did when I was a kid and visited. We smiled, rocked and just remembered…. Then the dream shifted and I was inside sitting on the couch next to my dad. My Paw Paw was standing up in front of us and he said something to the effect of him having to go… Immediately I said no and then he was broken. He held back tears as if he really didn’t want to leave me. I leaned over and sobbed on my dad’s shoulder. I belted out tears like I’ve never cried before.
Well when I woke up from this dream I just felt sad. I missed him. I wished I’d had more moments of fishing and swimming with him. I wanted to rewind life and just go back there and pause it. Well after a couple of days I forgot about the dream….until just this week. It’s been right there at the front of my memory. I have been trying to figure out what it meant, what this whole dream was about. I gathered a couple of things about this dream and I’m telling you because I think it’s relevant to where I am now. Having a memory in my dream symolizes that I’m ready to rid myself of my old ways and undergo a transformation. I’m ready for a new outlook. Having my grandfather in my dream symbolizes love, security, wisdom and protection. Having my father in my dream means Authority and protection (he was there for me) and I need to be more self reliant.
See, the dream, the scriptures, the song, they all mesh together. I’m still absorbing it all….I don’t know what any of it means, but I hope to soon. I hope God will uncover what he’s trying to tell me and probably what he’s BEEN trying to tell me I’ve just been too stubborn to listen. The only thing you or I can ever ask for is to be right inside the will of God. We all have pre conceived notions of where we THINK that should be and it could be the furthest from where we NEED to be. I challenge you guys this week that if you’re in a funk, to lean in on scripture, find those promises God gave to us in scripture and pray with expectation. We have to be strong enough in the word to be able to say, see God, you promised me these things. And then THANK HIM!! Thank him for what he’s going to do even if it hasn’t been done yet. THAT is the true testament of faith!!! I don’t know about you but right now, that’s all I got!!! FAITH!!!! what a beautiful thing!!
Okay I know that was a loooooooooooooooonnnnng version of my life and you probably didnt’ care about half of it (but if you’re reading this you must have 
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So we had our 3rd annual 4th of July party and I have a couple of shots to share with you. Guess I figure if I put you thru the torture of that loooong post I should give you some pics :D You’re welcome!!!
