First and foremost-I’ll start by saying that most of you who know me know that I am a child of God. There have been times when I’ve stepped out of the will of God and taken a backseat to him to take a front seat to the world. To focus my attention on things that in the end won’t even matter. The newest lens, a prettier blog, alot of friends when in the end what matters the most is my relationship with my creator. Sure God wants for me all of the wonderful things that life may have to offer to me but in His time and in His time alone. I am going to share with you a dream that I had this afternoon-Yes I took a nap this afternoon :) I want to say that I am not going to apologize for something that I think God clearly wants public for whoever to read. He gave me this dream and I truly believe that hidden somewhere inside of it is a blessing or a word for someone. I don’t know who and it suits me fine if I never do know, I just want to be obedient. I just want to know that while my feet walk this Earth I’ve listened to my Father and done as he asked.
I’m writing this down for now and it’s all a jumble, maybe as I write this out my dream will be clarified. I was in a hallway- standing with me was my Pastor and I don’t know about mentioning his name here because I would never want to step on anyone’s toes but it was my pastor who I love and look up to…. and several other people who I do not know. I suddenly feel the urge to invite these strangers to some sort of “revival”. I suppose it’s much like a missions trip though, we had to travel. My Pastor then turns to me and said that’s good, My students should be the ones inviting our guests. And suddenly when he said that I felt “on track”-good, right with God if that makes any sense. But forget not-we were in a hallway… we were waiting, then suddenly the dream shifts and I find myself in a room. I am alone with one acception. There’s a man lying on the bed. He looks helpless, he looks peaceful. (the wolf in the sheeps skin), he looks truly like one of God’s creatures. Then something happens and I reach to the floor for something. For some reason I think it’s a shoe. As I look up, the eyes of the man in the bed are staring at me directly. Almost disturbingly so. He has me locked in. He is on his hands and knees on the bed, clearly on a mission to make sure that he has my undivided attention. The eyes are an almost engaging shade of blue and for a moment I see what I sometimes see in people. Christ. For a SPLIT second, he looked innocent-harmless-almost as if he were a child of God. But then suddenly I couldn’t breathe. My husband was suddenly next to me which was odd because he wasn’t there before. I’m grasping for him unable to breathe. I try to kick my feet but realize I’m being held back. Almost as if there is some sort of snake wrapping around my body and squeezing every ounce of energy from me, every breath of air. I struggle to speak. I am able to make what I feel like are screams-attempts to get out of this trouble I’m in. But then I realize that my attempts to scream sound much like a whisper and that even my husband who was now standing next to me couldn’t hear me. I tried kicking him to get his attention and then nothing. I laid there helplessly, waiting to die. I felt smothered and overwhelmed and angry that amongst all this there was NOTHING that I could do to keep myself from dying. I got weak, my head fell to the side and then suddenly I see my son. (I fell asleep next to Sam for a nap-in real life) I see Sam, laying there just as I left him when we fell asleep together. It was almost a surreal feeling because now my dream has merged with what I thought was a dream….. to real life. I catch my breath and at this point I don’t know if it was in real life that I was left breathless or if I am still dreaming but I think that’s all irrelevant. Then I fell back asleep, completely refreshed and the fear or memory of what had just happened to me was gone….erased, it was a long forgotten thing locked somewhere inside of me.
So I awoke. I got up at about 5:15. I woke up a little annoyed because I knew now that I’d be up late because I slept so late. I started moving around and the first thing that hit me was the memory of the inability to breathe. I remembered the eyes of the man lying in the bed. God reminded me of the story of the wolf in the sheep’s skin. I honestly didn’t remember the scripture and had to go look it up but it is as follows:
Matthew 7:15 - Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves.
So then as I begin to write the small piece of what I had remembered of my dream down on a torn envelope, more started to flood me. So I grabbed an empty sheet of paper and started to fill it up and then realized even that wasn’t quick enough to capture all of what was flooding back to my memory. So I sit here-typing remembering less than an hour ago a dream that was so REAL that God wanted me to share it with you-whoever is out there and whoever was willing to sit through and skim this message. I truly believe it is a message and I truly believe that there is more than one message inside of this dream. I was studying my bible a few days ago and I felt led to write this scripture down and only today does it strike me and REALLY sink in at how perfect God’s timing is! Earlier this week-before I got the dream I found this scripture and it was the only thing I took away on paper that night, so I’m sharing it with you today!
Ephesians 5:14
“Wake up O sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.”
Isn’t it a little coincidental that I found that scripture, I meditated on it, I studied it and then it was applied in real life in a dream? I think not!!! God’s trying to talk to us people. He’s trying to get our attention. He wants us to wake up from this routine we’re stuck in. We go to work, we go to school, we party, we shop, we have girls nights out, but when is it His turn? When do we set aside our time for Him? When was the last time (myself included) that we actually had a heart to heart with our Maker? He’s there-he’s listening. Quit resisting the urge to turn to the ONLY ONE who can help you in your life. Jesus. The bible clearly states that the only way to God is through his son Christ Jesus. So why, WHY do we ignore him? Because much like in my dream- this world is packaged in sheep’s clothing. Things are glamorized, we idolize things, things are wrapped up and put in a nice and shiny package so that it is soothing and appealing to us. BUT DO NOT BE FOOLED—-Lying beneath that pretty shiny paper we call the “world” is a wolf in sheep’s clothes. Do not give up your seat in Heaven for the glitz and glamour of this world. It’s not worth it!
And there’s one more thing laid on my heart to write and I don’t know that it necessarily fits in with the rest of this blog or dream but I don’t care, I’m writing it anyways. And I actually find it kind of funny because as I studied and searched on where to look in the bible to find this….I found notes I had already written on it. I think it’s funny that things that we’ve studied before come to pass in real life. I LOVE GOD!
Psalms 1:1
Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.
So, I’ve studied that before. I have the Life Application Study Bible the NIV version. So I’m going to write the “study” notes beneath it. This is all derived directly from my study bible but I hope it hits home for some.
1:1 The writer begins his psalm extolling the joys of obeying God and refusing to listen to those who discredit or ridicule him. Our friends and associates can have a profound influence on us, often in very subtle ways. If we insist on friendships with those who mock what God considers important, we might sin by becoming indifferent to God’s will. This attitude is the same as mocking. Do your friends build up your faith, or do they tear it down? True friends should help, not hinder, you to draw closer to God.
1:1f God doesn’t judge people on the basis of race, sex, or national origin. He judges them on the basis of their faith in him and their response to his revealed will. Those who diligently try to obey God’s will are blessed. Their happy condition is like healthy, fruit bearing trees with strong roots (Jeremiah 17:5-8) and God promises to watch over them. God’s wisdom guides their lives. In contrast, those who don’t trust and obey God have meaningless lives that blow away like dust. There are only two paths of life before us-God’s way of obedience of the way of rebellion and destruction. Be sure to choose God’s path because the path you choose determines how you will spend eternity.
I love you all and Goodnight!
Dawn
Oh and because I just caaaan’t leave this blog without a picture I’m gonna post a picture of why I continue to strive to be all that I can be through THIS man. I took this picture at a wedding a few months ago.
Coincidental much? I think not!
